moving on

He is always so optimistic about life. Always. So..
He moved on.
He found another girl that can make him smile.

I'm happy for him.
I should be. I just dont know why i'm feeling so sad.
Bloody pathetic!

I had always thought that i had done the right thing.
I hope i did. Or maybe i really didnt do anything much.

Life is like a journey on a train, the way i see it sometimes. On your way to your destination, people come and go. Some will be with you till the train stops at the next station, some perhaps longer while the others are maybe just connected by a decent yet hopeful smile. But one or a few will stay with u till the end. Only, u never know when u will stop.

Regardless of anything, sometimes u just have to move on. If u cant, learn how to.

I want to share a quote that i'd found in a very special book. It's nt related pun dgn kat atas,bt wtv.
'Everything looked and sounded unreal. Nothing was what it is. That's what i wanted-to be alone with myself in another world where truth is untrue and life can hide from itself'
by eugene o'neill

Craps

Today i saw two girls. They are roommates. Both are my friends. They had a fight yesterday. Now they are back together with a grateful smile pasted on their faces.

I felt a pinch of pain and my heart sank in a deep grief.

It's not that i don't like seeing them happy.
Just that i used to be like that and I really truly miss that moment.

I miss her a lot. I mean like...a lot and lot and lot and lot!
And sadly to say i doubt she feels the same way.
I don't have anymore strength to keep denying that.

Thinking about this hurts me i just wanted to forget everything.
Like seriously. From the beginning. Zero.
To have amnesia.

And to the people who says you love me and so so, please don't keep saying all those bullshits and don't even keep in touch.
If you don't just fucking say so for goodness sake.

I know i'm hard to deal with but please don't give up. Even as a friend.
When i love someone, i'll do anything that's possible to be with that person. But if that person doesn't want to, what could I do?
Because I want that person to be happy too.

Anyways...
Don't take the thoughts of a person with a broken heart seriously.
Because most are just craps. Dogshits.

I wanna enjoy my life here, study, hopefully go to UK, get an awfully awesome result, be a damn respected cardiologist, marry someone who friggin loves me as much as i friggin love him and spend the rest of the days doing whatever i want to do at the moment.
thank u.