Today i saw two girls. They are roommates. Both are my friends. They had a fight yesterday. Now they are back together with a grateful smile pasted on their faces.
I felt a pinch of pain and my heart sank in a deep grief.
It's not that i don't like seeing them happy.
Just that i used to be like that and I really truly miss that moment.
I miss her a lot. I mean like...a lot and lot and lot and lot!
And sadly to say i doubt she feels the same way.
I don't have anymore strength to keep denying that.
Thinking about this hurts me i just wanted to forget everything.
Like seriously. From the beginning. Zero.
To have amnesia.
And to the people who says you love me and so so, please don't keep saying all those bullshits and don't even keep in touch.
If you don't just fucking say so for goodness sake.
I know i'm hard to deal with but please don't give up. Even as a friend.
When i love someone, i'll do anything that's possible to be with that person. But if that person doesn't want to, what could I do?
Because I want that person to be happy too.
Anyways...
Don't take the thoughts of a person with a broken heart seriously.
Because most are just craps. Dogshits.
I wanna enjoy my life here, study, hopefully go to UK, get an awfully awesome result, be a damn respected cardiologist, marry someone who friggin loves me as much as i friggin love him and spend the rest of the days doing whatever i want to do at the moment.
thank u.
hahahahahahaha...
ReplyDeletetoo bloody ambitious for a bisexual chic...
if you're the riskt-taker types..
go ahead...
have a mountain high of hope and ambition...
i'll say that hope are for sissies...
because they will always wish for the best when confronting the unknown...
eh...
they'll be no room for disappointments...
if you're not putting too much hope...
oh...
you're talking about 13...
haha...
girl on girl action eh?
nice....
love?
ha!
go rot in hell with it..
especially true love...
banyak sangat tengok hollywood movies dowh orang2 camtu...
aww...i was busy these few days n will be cuz there's midterm >.<
ReplyDeleteanyway..i enjoyed reading it..so true..
wow aiman..that's harsh haha..anyway..
my thinkin is nt influenced by hollywood..
love is an act throughout a lifetime
nice blog song ^^ i actually paused my songs to listen =D
haha aiman..if i have hope i'll work hard to get it man. so what if i fail la..thats part of life.even if i cried a bucket full of tears.
ReplyDeletebtw don't u wanna do it with d one u love. sumhow that sounds so wrong..lol.
yeah..i agree with ron bout that tho.
errk...
ReplyDelete*dunno what to say. low level of english. segan.
that's why i say...
ReplyDeletego ahead la if you're the risk-taking type...
my motto's prevention is better than cure..
la...
ni citer pasal being passionate to all human being ke?
ingat kat "lovers" and "partners" jer...
haha...
about that...
well..
i come to accpet the fact that i can't always get what i want...
but if i try, i'll get what i need...
and love's not the thing i need...
just yet...
haha
lo azrul....
ReplyDeleteaku bukan english teacher ko meh;D
haha..aiman.thats so like you la.
yeah.love sucks sometimes but i hope u'll find one soon..:)
If you miss all those people. Give em a call or messages. Friendship is a two-way interaction. Someone have to start the conversation.
ReplyDeleteyeah i know..but if it is started from only the same side isn't it a bit obvious who wants to maintain the relationship. i want to but if the other side doesn't even bother..then wth.
ReplyDeletebout ur lil roommate, how can u be soooo sure she doesn't miss you?
ReplyDeleteThe four letter words sentence.
ReplyDeleteWhen you talk about love, You remind me of my pervet teacher and his four letter words...
From eyes, give hope with love, once they fall into your love, than fuck that girl... (amazingly it is four letter words )
Friendship somehow can be stronger than kinship or even relationship... If you miss her, she might even miss you more pinkfingers...
Love
Four letter word that is so strong, it can change the entire world, and because of love too,people are willing to sacrifice everything... A great Leader like Alexander the great and Napolean fall because of love to a woman... Believe me, you don't want to live a life with loving and to be loved...Hope you'll find somethat that really love you, and he or she (if you are lesbo)is the one you really love too...
Sometimes, we think we know what we want in our life, (I always wanted to be Megan Fox boyfriend, ^^), but the fact is we actually want what from our point of view is cool for us, not what actually is good for us... But I'm totally amazed with your spirit and determination... Never give up... Because they will be no guaranteed for a brighter future for those who easily gave up and frustrated...