Choices

Man..this just totally irritates the hell out of me.
This one thing when u had all these thoughts that u wanna share and u're freaking enthusiastic to blog about it but u couldn't because u're in a car heading somewhere and u didn't have ur freaking notebook with u and when u got back in ur room with ur notebook on your lap and u forgot what u wanted to write.
WTH did i want to write?
Shit! Shit! Shit!

That happened to me like a LOT and i'm freaking Stressed. Errghh..!

oh Neways..i just remember something that i often think of.
We have many choices in our lives and i don't understand why people sometimes just stick to a few particular options.
Okay i'll give u an example a girl broke her mom's precious and worth of 10K flower vase due to carelesness. She'll probably freaked out and think of ways to cover it up so she won't be scolded or admit to her mom and accept her punishments like she's supposed to.

Those might be the possible and most rational solutions that a sane human can think of.
But then there are also some other alternatives eg.
1. Get hit by a train and die then u could save all the thinkings (obviously a stupid and irrational idea)
2. Kill someone else or commit serious crime which will make ur previous problem seems a lot less significant
3. Accuse ur maid or other people so they will take all the blame (only for cowards and damn unethical)
4. Run away from home and go back after 6 months or some other periods depending on how long it takes for ur mom to forgive u
5. Borrow money from everywhere and buy her a new vase
6. Say that u had a premonition that the vase is gonna bring bad luck and that u have to break it as to save the family from misfortunes .?

OK..most are just craps.lol. but the first option should never be in ur list because suicides will not solve much. What i want to point out here is that u have lot of choices in life. it's whether u see it or not.
now my head is pretty blank and drowning in sleepiness and before i start to sound like a freakin retard i think i better go to sleep first.

yellow pillow.